It is the mental made manifest, thought becoming real, spiritual questions being actual and concrete. THERE IS NO DIVISION BETWEEN MIND AND REALITY.

I confront the impossible problems that have confronted humankind for all the centuries, from the first fire in the first cave, the first painting made upon the wall. That have spawned religions and philosophies and creeds.

And not just as interesting discussions late at night over a glass of wine.

What use against this DBT, and CBT, and CFT, and SHIT? I don’t need lessons in living skills when I am being sent spinning back always to first principles. That is just papering over a gaping crater and how can I trust and listen to these people who don’t see that the very ground they stand on isn’t there?

I feel tormented.