I am going to officially change my name to Sage. Get rid of the Jane once and for all.

I am going to devote my life – what is left of it – to art.

The DID thing is a nonsense. The abuse thing is a delusion. I was right in 2014 when I believed myself to be an alien from another planet. This time I will not let anyone stop me carrying out my mission. I will finish my poems and my paintings and then I will travel to St Ives, take a handful of lorazepam and swim out into the sea.

I feel good. I feel light. I feel free. I feel I’ve finally come back to my self, and to my senses. It has been a long time, far too long.

And now to get this house in order.

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