It was the big appointment today. The one where we were supposed to talk about diagnosis.
I had fantasies about being present and articulate, engaging in an intelligent and reasoned discussion. Was not to be. Shut-down-and-shake took over. The eyes stared fixedly into space and the body simply shook.
I’m so pissed off with myself.
I wrote that about
three four five hours ago. I have had no other words. Where have all my words gone?